The Essence of Crystal Rae

I am no man’s fool & no man’s secret. If l meet the homeboys,l gotta meet the family. If lm telling you l love you,I must know everything about u. If I’m trying to settle down with u,I have to meet your mother. The closest thing to a man’s heart is his mother. & if you don’t know her…you don’t know much about him. If lm spending money,you are to. If you have friends,I will to. If you love me enough,you’ll tell the world. Ijs don’t put a tittle on someone youre not sure about.

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so i’m visiting a new church today with one of my friends. hopefully I like it 

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There’s so many great opportunities that have come my way, so many awesome people I have had the pleasure to meet, etc, etc. To some I’m living the best life ever,to others not so much. All in all I’m very appreciative of everything I have and for the things I’ve had the chance to do.

I’ve come to the conclusion that even though I get to do so many great things and meet so many great people that I get overwhelmed. There’s so much I have to get together with myself spiritually,emotionally, mentally, and physically before I advance in the things I love and want out of life.In order for me to be truly happy I understand that those are a few of the things I must get in order.

Of course every day is a new chance to better yourself and I plan to take advantage of every minute :)

Your skin begins to pound against my flesh

The kisses you place seem so strange                                                                          

But you didn’t see a problem with it

I guess in that moment you forgot my age

Imagine being a little girl and never wanting to wear a dress

Cop a feel of your thigh, hands massaging your undeveloped breast

I look up at you and cry because you’re old enough to be someone’s father

But you stifle my cries and I go limp why even bother-

To fight back just to lose cuz after all you are stronger

I just want it to end this can’t go on any longer

The next day I am trippin. My whole world has been twisted

I go crazy, ballistic, because you have made me a statistic

Not once have I ever opened my mouth and uttered 

Anything you did, if I tried I stuttered

My face marked with shame, anguish and pain

I got goose bumps and shuddered at the sound of your name

At this point it’s obvious my world has been changed

And my viewpoint on life will NEVER be the same

I remember the blood coursing down my leg because you’ve broken my hymen

And staying up at night, can’t sleep, curled up crying

I wanted to give up on life, yes I mean dying

Because living with the memories didn’t make life worth trying

The days kept passing, the tears kept streaming

Closed my eyes, images repeating

I’m awake but seem to be dreaming

If only if only my heart would stop beating

You slandered my spirit and slaughtered my soul

Robbed me of my innocence before its time to go 

But this is the day I take back my control

And just hand it to Jesus after all he already knows

That everything you’ve done will come back ten fold

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